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Friday, March 24, 2006

i jus realised that i've been rather free for the past 2 days... but i'm gonna close myself at home during the wkends to read my lectures and cont'd to be on track. seriously, JC life talks abt consistency. tat's why VJ is labelled PLAY HARD, STUDY HARD. yea, it's true. the pple here can play like siao pple and slack like crap .. yet during A's, they score 4As... crazy and insane pple!!

coming backk...

so far. Vj has been tough, it's been a routine each and every day ... finishin school at 3+, reaching home at 5.. slack til 7... have dinner and chiong hmwk all the way til 12+ ... in the end, i only end up with less than 6hrs of slp. the funny thing is tat i'm seldom tired... i'm no longer slpin during lectures, although i tend to lose it for a few minutes at times...haha, think the Lord always answer my daily prayers for strength, attention and energy. thx Laupa!

think i'm coping well here... maybe it's bcos the chapters are still relatively easy? haha.

my current test results:

1) GP - 29/50 ... ms lim said it was highest, super shocked lah ... maybe GP isnt really that simple as i thud? it's gd to be praised lah, feel so affirmed by her. but i'm not proud of it bcos my bro always complains tat my english is lousy. actually, it's true... maybe i shudnt be bothered by wat pple say?

2) Chem - 12.5/ 15 ... our chem tutor, LauWeeHua counted wrongly. it was short of one mark! i demand it man. didnt know how i scored so well, frankly speakin, i thud all my equations were wrong lah . yet, only a few were wrong. Praise the Lord !! it's His grace and guidance lah.

tell u smth. i'm beginnin to be rather enthusiatic abt GP. i used to think it's super boring and diff to score, but the teacher is really really cool man! ms lim, u rock! the only thing i dislike, is the debates and discussions. i prefer writing essays cos i seriously needa improve them. i'm sry guys...
i'm enjoyin Math as well. as that the Qns are getting super chim liao lor, no more simple Qns tat can be solved by equations or methods. it's chimology liao lor (derived from chim) and requires us to waste tonnes and tonnes of brain cells man... haiz, need to jiayou on this part. Lord, erm ... grant me more brain cells? haha

lookin forward to Sunday. i'll be anchoring the Sec School side and got lots of stuff to take care of
hey pple, pls pray for ur leaders and brothers/sisters who are attendin the above18 Encounter right now, pray for the Lord to reveal to them more things abt their lives or even show them a greater understdin of the Revelation of the Cross. Lord, be among them and dwell in their midst. Lord, allow the Holy Spirit to teach them and grant them understdin! amen.

i've got a Phy and Chinese test nxt wk. aint lookin forward to the Chinese test on Fri, cos the new syllabus is oso chimology lor... think the new format kinda sucks actually, haha...

i'm off to study liao.
i think i needa watch my mouth at times, i think i'm offendin pple oredi. i'm sry to all

{ 9:35 PM }

Sunday, March 19, 2006

dont even remind me... i have gone for almost 10days liao...the blog oredi feels deserted lah, ugh

anyway, got lots to update.

1) Sze Huan's Bday celebration (abit screwed)
initial plan was to bowl and pool at Safra Country Club... quite near my place, except that it requires a shuttle bus to reach there, and it only comes 1hr or smth liddat. however, the whole plan was screwed cos Zhen had competition, which she didnt expect to win, haha ... me and ben were laughin when we read her sms lah... sze huan was at Vj, so we decided to cab down to VJ and visit him... we saw him in his Anderson uniform, he looks better in long pants. but the uniform colour co-ordination very lousy. szehuan, i can understd how you feel abt ur uniform. i wore ugly uniform for 4yrs lor, u onli needa tahan for 2yrs man...haha

we bused to Cine to pool ... EM pangsei us, haha...nvm, we forgive you ... it's been a long time since i pooled, tat's if u count out the pooling times i had in VJ... bcos the pool table (i think) is slightly off balance. haha. think i have improved quite abit.. only towards the end then i sucked...haha

ate at marche and treated szehuan since we all agreed not to get a cake. it was his 1st time eating there, dont wry... nxt time u surely have more chances to eat there. had a tough time sorting out the money issue... and it got really really blur.

after that...it was our hike.
me, szehuan, ben and jeff walked frm Heeren Marche to Bugis MRT... yea, u heard / saw it correctly. think it took us roughly 1hr plus? donno lah... quite funny, cos we managed to joke alot along the way. gonna miss ben and szehuan man ... haiz
halfway towards bugis, we went to buy soya bean milk from the famous Rochor Beancurd...it's been a long time since i last went there man, drank until so shuang (shiok)...

then we trained down...
oh yea, this must be some form of coincidence...
darren drops at Tanah Merah
Jeff drops at Simei
Szehuan drops at Tampines
Ben drops at Pasir Ris

hmmmm...

2) G12 Conference (thurs to sat)

started on Thurs evening. but let's rewind to Thurs Morning and Afternoon. i was blessed by the book "Footprints" that xiaomei, Sarah and Juli gave me as a belated bday present. the topic was on Dreams, quite coincidential to Pastor Khong's msg during prev svc. haha... met Eunice on the train, and i forced her to stand and pei wo, cos i was all alone on the train lah... at least i managed to know her abit better.
was supposed to meet Sarah and Juli at Plaza to see guit...but juli said this when i called, "Sarah and i are at Cine... she's doin her nails" bangs head*

so i walked frm Plaza to Cine lor...ended up all sweaty and hot, ugh ... finally managed to treat Sarah, i oredi owed her for so long liao lor. i still owe some pple treats man, Lord pls make me a gd steward of my money.

after lunch at Cine. we walked back to Plaza (goodness, darren u have alot of energy hor?) to see guit. realised tat the guit look rather lousy, as in ... the surfaces arent that nice. Sarah said Clar's guit is quite ideal bcos the surface of the guit very smooth. come to think of it, tat's true... time to start scouting again

after tat... i went to G12 with Juli
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in short, G12 was pretty amazing. the Lord managed to reveal lots of stuff and teach me alot of things. i really didnt expect G12 to be so powerful, considerin last yr's G12 conference was rather wasted bcos of my attitude towards it. but the Lord has really really spoken to me, donno how many times liao lor... i was in joy, in excitement, in tears and even in super high spirits!
wanna know more abt G12? refer to this website: http://www.fcbc.org.sg

3) Service (Sunday)

i thank God that there werent any classes this morning man, or else i would be so shagged... i was oredi strugglin to keep myself awake during svc liao lor. today, our entire tribe was wearing Tribe Jersey... it's been a long time since i put on that no.21 "LIVE FOR GOD" Jersey liao. Eunice, dont wry abt ur jersey no. lah ... 41 aint tat bad, haha ... there was tribe photo taking session as well. i love this family of mine, the photo taking part felt so loving, ONE BIG FAMILY, ahhh... ...

coming back... svc was a great way to end the G12 Conference, responded to Altar Call. for the very first time, i cried for the Lord because of joy. it was great to hear the affirmation that the Lord spoke to me, thx Lionel for praying. i really needed that hug.

joined Shixiong's cell grp today...decided to stay longer in EXPO for no apparent reason, doesnt matter who i am under... managed to learn alot frm Nick, paul, Ben. L and even Shixiong himself. i feel blessed with brothers like this man...

i thank God that Jac came for svc lah... all my Chinese hmwk and stuff was with her lor, only managed to touch one Chinese essay for the entire holiday lah... gonna chiong the 2nd Chinese essay tonght. i really dislike Chinese now, it's so diff to study oredi bcos it's the newer syllabus...plus, after 6mths of no contact with Chinese... i have lost the touch and enthu for it...

but i'm gonna jiayou for it. i needa pass it...at least a B4 ! jiayou darren =p

this wk is gonna be crazy...bet u tat i'm gonna spend more than 60bucks on TYSes, lecture notes and class funds...irritatin, i really need to be a gd steward at this man... oh Lord, pls help me

holidays end liao ... school starts, finally i will LOOK A VICTORIAN with the new uniform, haha... no more brown! haha

currently figuring out the intro tabs for "Come Holy Spirit" ... it's diff man, but i have made an accomplishment for Shepherd, cos i figured out the elec guit intro... but i needa figure out the chords for the song... oredi heard Shepherd for 420 times liao, addicted to it oredi man...think i'm gonna buy that album bcos another song in it rocks, it's called "All my days" ...

i'm out... gone to worship the Lord +

{ 10:52 PM }

Monday, March 13, 2006

LAST WK FOR TERM 1 ... holidays!

yes yes... i know, i'm been out of action for a wk oredi right? ...haiz, sry lah ...
anyway, here's an update for the entire wk ... starting from Tues:

Tuesday 070306:

woohoo! appeal to VJ was successful ! reported to VJ this morning ... went to GO to collect my transfer form from Ms Tan aka HOD Chinese, she's very very slow man
thank God that i can remain in 06S61 ... really glad to see all my frens there again, but it's much much smaller ( i dont really like it, hmph ) ...
class size, however, didnt change much ... lost 7, gained 7 ... alot of new faces but they seem quite nice lah, i think ...

btw... did i tell u i was supposed to be OGL if i stayed in VJ? supposed to be OGL for Monday lah, but i got posted to SA so i was (by right) taken out of the OGL list...
today was class OG lah ... not league OG liao, sianzz... still had lotsa fun

today was basically mass dances and cheers!
finally mastered "I Want You" ... woohoo! but i still suck at Friendship Dance (it's bcos the Councillors didnt teach us OGLs )

i oso loved the OGL cheer man! lemme tell u... it was one of the reasons why i wanted to be an OGL ... haha

We're moving in, we're moving out
OGLs, let's hear you shout
catch the spirit we create
today's the day we dominate
say it loud and say it proud
OGLs, OGLs
ehhhhhh .....OGLs!!!

[think tat's the "lyrics" for the OGL cheer]

left during O2, felt abit guilty but i gotta admit ... VJ has this tradition whereby O2 will compulsory suck! (candice, pls take note)
cabbed to SA ard 12plus to get my transfer form signed, managed to see Danilah in SA (FYI: she was the 1st fren i knew at SA) ... then took bus back to VJ again...realised that the cab fare to SA was so irrelevant, sianz...waste $$

fast forward...

VJ had mass dance at Fountain of Wealth again!!!! woohoo! but it cant beat O1's dance at the FOW ... we even went inside the fountain to do VJ and OG cheers lor, bet the security guards were damn pissed... but it was fun and super super wet !! haha... ben and szehuan came back, gosh...i miss them man! ben still manages to rmb the dance steps eh? haha ... szehuan, as usual, always the enthu kind

got home ard 11plus...one thing was on my mind: SLEEP !

Wed 080306:

lessons officially starts... super sian, it's worse cos we started the day off with Econs tutorial... trust me, Econs can be really really boring when it comes to essay writing...but, i realised tat Econs essay aint easy at all. i needa catch the techniques soon man!

fast forward.. (needa fast forward lah, the rest are all lectures and tutorials..u sure u want me to blog abt them? haha)

had 2hrs of Piano today ... damn xiong lah... 730 to 930pm, sickenin
esp when ur teacher asks u to play the same bar over and over again...think i needa buck up for Piano liao, diploma exams are during Nov/Dec period...do pray ya? the songs are *ahem* not simple at all...

reached home at 10 ... didnt wanna touch anythin except alittle bit on Chem, there's Redox test tmr, frowns*

Thurs 090306:

highlight no.1 ---> i changed to VJ uniform liao...no more brown ugly uniform liao ...

highlight no.2 ---> chem redox test: frustrated cos i know how to do jus tat the teacher set super funny equations
[eg: (n-1)I2 + etc etc ... where got such thing as (n-1) moles of Iodine one? siao]

highlight no.3 ---> yiying and szehuan came back, i really miss yiying alot sia... even though she's really irritatin at times and makes me wanna punch her... i can onli apologise now, i'll miss ur irritating-ness ...

highligh no.4 ---> during Econs tutorials, my entire clique sat like the Lord's supper... jus tat we lacked 2 more pple...haha, crappy right?

nothin else to blog abt Thurs liao ... sry pple

Fri 100306:

ben came back...
hey ben, really really glad tat u came back...bet all of them really missed u to the core man! oh ya, stop being so hardworkin! u're crashin VJ and u're listenin attentively to the lectures? u crazy or wat? ...

fast forward ..

there was a Draco-Lynx Conference at Concourse today, and Yvonne was supposed to sing (abit funny cos she's in Pegasus, not Draco or Lynx) ... some of us decided to wait for her "performance" which was scheduled to start at 5plus ... by 630, it still wasnt on ... we decided to leave ... some of us went to TJ's Dinner or smth liddat ... i went home

in short, it was a very emotional day for many of us in the clique ... Jeannie cried during Chem prac ... she and suchen cried again when we were abt to leave...

here's wat i wanna say to ____:

[ Ben ] --- i'm really gonna miss u alot, we two were the onli guai* pple tat would attend lectures even when the entire clique pons ... with u gone, i'll be the onli one attendin ...
oh ya, i'm gonna fail NAFA bcos of u, u're supposed to be my pull-up partner man! ugh!!! i cant count on Jeff lah, cos he doesnt wanna train lah ... i miss how crappy u are at times, dont wanna name the several occasions when i scolded u and ur crappiness but i gotta say ... i'll miss them.
i'll even miss ur hardworkiness... we two were the very few pple tat did tutorials and chiong-ed to the board during Phy tutorial to volunteer for Ms Cai's Qns lor ... now, i'll nvr dare to go up again ..

[ Szehuan ] --- i donno how to begin with you lah ... my fellow Councillor, my fellow classmate and my fellow cliquemate... i really wanna wish u the best at AJC man, even though it's goin to be a hard pill to swallow...u must jiayou all the way and excel there, pls rmb to run for President of the Student's Council !!! gonna miss ur Catholic High Bear and miss making fun of ur thick eyebrows !

[ yiying ] --- one of the highest person i've ever met ( i still think Jeannie wins my vote for the highest person, sry ) ... sry for making fun of u so many times, think it's onli fair tat u call me 'mean' lah ... still rmb tat it started out as 4 LALAs? .. u, me, szehuan and ben? guess the LALAs are splittin into 4 diff schools, haiz ... i'm gonna miss ur blur-ness and ur drama-emotions!! cherish tat bday present we got for u ok? LALAs UNITE !!!!

[ emily ] --- i feel writing this one abt u lor, i really cant bear u to leave... u always have tat smile which brightens up my days lor ... it's amazing tat u're such a HAPPY-GO-LUCKY person man! really gonna miss saying "CAN I HAVE A CHICKEN, PLEASE?" to u (think it's startin to annoy u oredi right? sry then) ... gonna miss patting ur head and pullin ur hair-band ... the girl who cant stop smilin is leaving, how? ... blue pencil, i'll miss you!

writing this little notes to u guys are really really emotional lor, i really cant bear any of u to leave... it's sad tat we onli had 2mths together...
sometimes i wished i was the one tat left VJ for SA ... and u guys stayed for the clique

speechless at how time flies ... speechless at how 2mths changed our lives... speechless at where we are now ... speechless tat things changed so much, can we return to the times whereby it was only 11 of us taking silly photos in C11 ? things will nvr be the same ... S61 clique rocks, nothin can replace this fact !

holidays have started...lookin forward to it? nahh ...with so much work to do and stuff to catch up on, (got 2 Chinese Compo to do lor ...sickening), plus a Chinese test to study for (heard tat there's test during Term2 Wk 1) ...and with the G12 conference coming up, time is really against me right now ... haiz Lord, grant me productivity in everythin tat i do ...

[ben][jean][EM][jeff][chen][ming][qing][huan][ying][darren][eVon] ------> uniquely us, uniquely special

{ 12:03 AM }

Monday, March 06, 2006

ROLLERCOASTERS OF MY LIFE ...

if u read Sarah's blog on her ups and downs during these few mths...i realised tat i'm experiencin the exact same thing...

tears, laughter, anxiousness, excitement, fear, enthusiasm ... all part of these 2mths in VJ ...

btw...the reason why i didnt blog for awhile was bcos i was hit by the posting results:
FYI , i was posted to SAJC...

tell u hor, i cried like shit lah...couldnt accept the fact tat i got 5pts but i got into SA, it was a very emotional period and fearful period as well...obviously, i went to appeal to VJ and TJ as well cos i made the criteria for both schools ( VJ - 5 & TJ - 7)

this was my greatest challenge:
DREAM V.S. BELIEF

i started to question God on why it was SAJC even though i made the criteria for VJ, or at most TJ ... it was a struggle and it was really really a tough wkend for me ... i was putting on a mask so tat pple would assume tat i'm okay with the posting results, but during svc... i let it all out, i couldnt hide ..

was it a test? a sacrifice? an obstacle? a command?

i now realise how painful sacrifices can be... in just one event, and i'm broken into pieces... i finally realised how weak i am ... think my relationship with God needs more foundation...much much more...i still got so much to learn man!

i've jus gotten my appeal results liao ...

i got rejected by TJ, in short...i failed the interview bcos they were very competitive on which JC was my 1st choice...it wasnt TJ mah, so they str away didnt want me

however

i'm posted to VJ !!! triple yays!!! i donno wat to say ... i feel like shouting, "GOD!! HOW COME YOU USE THIS KIND OF THING TO PLAY WITH ME ?!!!! WHY MAKE ME GO THRH ALL THE TEARS AND PAIN, BUT IN THE END STILL BRING ME BACK VJ ???!!!"

but i heard God answering...

"if i didnt put u thrh this, would u ever realise the meaning of sacrifice? if i didnt put u thrh this, u would always be weak and fragile, and break into pieces once an obstacle comes abt right? "

laupa, i donno wat to say ... jus when i oredi given up hope on the appeals, He still provided hope, grace and blessed me with VJ ... this is the truth: His ways are way above ours

i dont understd but i follow... is this the child-like faith i need?

it was a test, a sacrifice, an obstacle and a command

"Trust in the Lord with all Your Heart and lean not on your own understanding; and in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

"And even though sometimes your ways

I cannot understand, I'll never walk away

because my future is in Your hands"

- Running After You by Planet Shakers

speechless on how great my God is ... i'm blessed

thx to those who prayed for me and gave me advice...

my brothers, esp Nick and my sisters

esp Danny and Lionel who stood by me, when i struggled...

i give thx for my spiritual fathers!

{ 7:31 PM }

Thursday, March 02, 2006

LAST DAY IN VJ ...

first of all, let's congratulate all the Year 3 students who have made VJ proud ... hey butt, not bad ah, 3As (let's not talk abt Econs lah)... thud u were crying when i called u lah, haha ...

Mrs Chan aka VJ Principal gave us full-day off, woohoo!! gosh, i laughed when she said this:
"if you realise, it's onli 8o'clock, pls dont go home or else ur parents would question you, instead go and 'kill' time then go home ... be our walking advertisements, if pple ask you why u skipped sch ... say VJ allow us! "
haha...she rocks man!

though we were let off at 8...i had OGL meeting frm 9 to 10plus, excited abt O2 man, but i doubt it'll be tat fun! year 1s, pls dont pon O2 hor ... or else it'll be miserable, the Council elects briefed us abit here and there, btw pple ... TUESDAY SUNTEC CITY, FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH: VJC MASS DANCE!!! woohoo! come if you wanna see! (psst... sarah, wanna come and see? come and feel the VJ spirit )

tmr still got OGL meeting at 1230, think we're gonna play games, learn mass dances and OGL cheer as well ... excited yet anxious (i think we all know why)

xiaomei came to VJ today, apparently TKGS uses our track for their Track Heats... think she looks super young and short in her green uniform lah, paiseh ... btw, dont say sry liao ... it's perfectly okay ... at most u owe me a favour lor, haha...jus kidding

abit unprepared for tmr lah ... in short, i'm not confident in stayin ... let's just say i (roughly) know where i'm posted to liao, ask me for more details if u wanna know how i know the posting results...
i'm jus prayin tat i wont need to use tat blue form and that the screen will flash a "V" and nothin else... Lord, grant me favour!

am i askin too much?
i really donno....
Laupa, i'm sorry

{ 10:24 PM }